Purple Monkeyflower Flower Essence
For when spirituality feels more scary than sacred
Have You Ever Been Afraid of Your Own Spiritual Experiences?
You're not alone. And you're not crazy.
There's a particular kind of fear that doesn't get talked about much.
Not fear of the dark. Not fear of failure. Not even fear of death, exactly.
It's fear of the spiritual.
Fear of what might happen if you meditate too deeply.
Fear of psychic experiences you can't control or explain.
Fear of punishment from God—or the universe—for thinking the wrong thoughts.
Fear that exploring spirituality outside your family's tradition will bring consequences.
Fear that something dark might come through if you open that door.
This fear can be paralyzing. It can keep you from developing gifts that want to emerge. It can trap you in spiritual frameworks that no longer fit, simply because leaving feels dangerous.
If any of this sounds familiar, there's an essence made specifically for you.
The Flower That Faces Fear
The genus name for Monkeyflower is Mimulus—from Latin "mimus," meaning "comic actor" or "mime."
The flowers look like tiny theatrical faces. Grinning. Expressive. As if making a face at something frightening.
Different colored Monkeyflowers address different kinds of fear:
- Yellow Monkeyflower: fears with known causes (heights, spiders, public speaking)
- Scarlet Monkeyflower: fear of anger, of the emotional shadow
- Sticky Monkeyflower: fear of intimacy and rejection
Purple Monkeyflower is for spiritual fear specifically.
The purple color tells you this immediately. Purple is the color of the crown, higher consciousness, spiritual connection, the realm beyond the physical.
Purple Monkeyflower addresses fear that lives in this territory.
Where This Fear Comes From
For many people, spiritual fear was taught.
Maybe you grew up in a tradition that warned against "the occult"—and defined occult so broadly that it included anything unfamiliar. Energy work. Intuitive knowing. All filed under "dangerous."
Maybe you were told that certain thoughts or questions would anger God. That curiosity about spiritual matters outside approved channels was itself a sin.
Maybe you absorbed the message that spiritual experiences are only valid if they come through specific authority figures—and that anything you experience directly is suspect at best, demonic at worst.
These messages don't just inform. They install fear at a cellular level.
For others, spiritual fear came from experience.
Maybe you had a psychic opening that overwhelmed you. A vision you couldn't process. An experience that shattered your sense of reality and left you feeling ungrounded, unprotected, unsafe.
Maybe something happened during meditation or spiritual practice that scared you badly enough that you shut the whole thing down.
Maybe you encountered something you perceived as negative—and now you're afraid of the spiritual realm because you know it's not all love and light.
Both paths lead to the same place: fear-based relationship with the spiritual.
What Fear-Based Spirituality Looks Like
You might be operating from spiritual fear if:
You're hypervigilant about "protection."
Every spiritual practice starts with elaborate shielding rituals. You can't meditate without worrying about what might "get in." You spend more energy on defense than on actual connection.
You suppress your natural gifts.
You have intuition, maybe even psychic sensitivity, but you've pushed it down. It feels dangerous. You pretend it isn't there, even though it keeps trying to surface.
You police your own thoughts.
Certain questions feel forbidden. Certain curiosities feel like betrayal. You catch yourself thinking something and immediately feel fear of spiritual consequences.
You can't leave your tradition—even though it no longer fits.
The theology doesn't work for you anymore. The practices feel hollow. But the fear of what happens if you leave—spiritual fear, not just social fear—keeps you trapped.
You had an experience that shattered you.
Something happened—a vision, an opening, an encounter—and it didn't feel safe. It left you destabilized. Now you avoid anything that might trigger that kind of experience again.
You can't trust your own spiritual perceptions.
Even when you have clear inner knowing, you doubt it. You defer to external authority. You assume your own experience is unreliable or dangerous.
What Purple Monkeyflower Supports
Love-based rather than fear-based spirituality.
This is the core gift of this essence. It supports the fundamental shift from relating to the spiritual through fear to relating to it through love. From "what might hurt me" to "what wants to help me."
Calm and clarity when experiencing spiritual phenomena.
If psychic experiences unsettle you—if they leave you anxious rather than enriched—this essence supports groundedness. The ability to witness without being overwhelmed.
Courage to trust your own spiritual experience.
Your direct knowing is valid. Your intuition counts. Your relationship with the divine doesn't require external approval. Purple Monkeyflower supports the courage to claim this.
Freedom from fear of spiritual retribution.
The anxious waiting for punishment. The sense that God/the universe is watching for missteps. This essence supports release from that prison.
Recovery from shattering spiritual experiences.
If you had an opening that left you ungrounded, destabilized, feeling unsafe—this essence supports the integration and healing that lets you feel protected again.
Departure from family religious conventions without terror.
You can honor your roots and still grow beyond them. You can leave what no longer serves without expecting lightning bolts. Purple Monkeyflower supports this freedom.
The Face-Like Flower
There's something important in the Monkeyflower's appearance.
It looks like a face. A grinning face. A face that's making an expression at something frightening. The Monkeyflower's face-like appearance has been seen as a mask. Fear-based spirituality is itself a kind of mask—covering what would naturally be a relationship of love and trust. This essence supports removing that mask.
This is the signature: facing fear with lightness.
Spiritual fear often feels so heavy, so serious, so dangerous. The Monkeyflower's comic-actor appearance suggests another way: what if we could face our spiritual fears with a bit less grimness? What if we could look at what scares us and... not take it quite so seriously?
This doesn't mean spiritual fear isn't real. It means it doesn't have to run your life.
Who This Essence Is For
The person recovering from religious trauma.
Fear-based religious upbringing leaves marks. Messages about hell, about God's anger, about spiritual danger—these don't just evaporate when you intellectually reject them. They live in your nervous system. If you were taught as a child that spiritual exploration was dangerous, that message may still be running your life decades later. The beliefs changed. The fear didn't. Purple Monkeyflower addresses the fear itself, not just the beliefs—it supports the actual release, not just the intellectual understanding.
The intuitive or psychic who's afraid of their gifts.
You know you have something. You might have known since childhood. But it scares you. It feels dangerous. You've suppressed it rather than develop it, and now it's calling to come forward. This essence supports safe emergence.
The person whose spiritual awakening overwhelmed them.
Kundalini experiences. Spontaneous openings. Visions that came unbidden. If you've had spiritual experiences that left you shattered rather than enlightened, this essence supports integration and the restoration of feeling safe.
The one who wants to deepen but is afraid to go deep.
Meditation calls you. Spiritual practice interests you. But there's a wall of fear. What if something happens? What if you open something you can't close? Purple Monkeyflower supports the courage to go deeper without the terror.
The person who can't leave a tradition that no longer fits.
Not because of community ties. Not because of family pressure (well, not just that). Because of genuine fear that leaving will bring spiritual consequences. Damnation. Curses. Retribution. This essence supports freedom from that prison.
How Flower Essences Work
Flower essences work on the energetic level—supporting emotional and mental patterns rather than targeting physical symptoms.
Purple Monkeyflower carries the energetic signature of its plant: facing spiritual fear with calm, even with humor. Courage in the territory of the sacred.
When you take the essence, you're introducing this pattern into your own system. You're giving your nervous system a template for what it feels like to be spiritually open without being spiritually afraid.
Two Paths
You can continue relating to the spiritual through fear.
Avoiding. Suppressing. Protecting. Staying small.
Letting old programming run your relationship with the sacred.
Or you can try something different.
You can work with an essence specifically designed to support the shift from fear-based to love-based spirituality. To help you face your spiritual fears and find they have less power than you thought.
These statements have not been evaluated by the Food and Drug Administration. This product is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease. Flower essences are a form of energetic support and work on subtle levels; they are not a substitute for medical care.
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This is a 1 fl oz stock strength bottle.
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